Happy Birthday to ME!

This year's birthday has been a BIG BLAST! 2008, 20th September, 20th birthday.. I really had the best birthday celebration and surprise ever to date.. Thank you ALL for making such a day possible for me.. Here is how the wonderful day went...

Morning
Woke up at 0715 and prepared to go for a jog.. Met Rennie at 0800 and we ran from my place all the way to the end of Pasir Ris Beach and back.. Took us one and a half hours for the run.. Thank you Rennie for running slowly to run the same pace as me and to keep fit together! Hahaz.. Then we cooled down and ate bananas..

Reached home and showered, happily showering myself in the Strawberry Body Polish that i bought from Body Shop and i came out smelling like a strawberry.. Hahaz.. Went to the interchange to meet my grand-aunt and brought her to my place.. Faster change and got ready to leave as Lisa, Charity and Edwin came.. Then we headed out to lunch at Saltwater, a buffet restaurant at Changi Village Hotel..

Afternoon
Was starving by the time we reached Saltwater.. Ian had already reached when i just left home.. Sorry bro, paiseh ah.. When i saw him, i saw a cake box.. Yeah! I immediately knew he baked me something unique! Then when i opened it, this is what i saw....

IT IS BEAUTIFUL TO THE MAX RIGHT? SPECIALL MADE FOR ME ONLY!! SO FEEL THE LOVE CAN!! You SEE the flowers? It is being piped, PETAL BY PETAL! Thank you Ian, thanks for helping me fulfil a birthday wish for me.. =)Thank you for being such a great great friend/brother to me.. You have been a blessing to me.. Keep that wonderous hands of yours going yeah!!

Then we had buffet lunch which was spendid! I really enjoyed the company, food and ambience.. Thanks for coming Ian, Lisa, Charity and Edwin.. Thanks Pa, Ma and Yi Po for coming too.. Of course must extra thank my dad cause he paid for the bill.. =p

Family

Besties

Then it was cam-whore session! Started to take alot of photos, jump here and there.. It was rather unglam, but it was fun and i enjoyed it.. Thank you all for making it possible..

Then we started to head home, dropping Edwin and Ian off.. Lisa and Charity was resting in my room while i was out helping my mum with the misen place.. Then at 1600 when i was about to go with Charity and Lisa to NTUC to get the miscellaneous items, i received a SMS from Mr Poh saying he cannot come as he got called back to camp.. Wha, i was quite upset by the news... But nevermind.. 1 only mah..

Then as we were heading home from NTUC, Syafiq from band called me to say he ALSO kena caught back for duty.. Then i was like, this seems like a joke.. Then he say, he FASTING, CANNOT LIE.. So i told myself, that is true.. Double blow ah.. Nevermind..

While walking home, Nigel SMS me, say he will be late, might not even be able to make it! Wha, that was it, i snapped immediately, thinking to myself, why can't i just have a nice birthday gathering? I was seriously very very very upset..

Just nice Shi Hui called and i went to meet Hazel and her.. They got me a VERY BEAUTIFUL JACKET, with combined efforts from Candice and Swee Kee.. Thanks babes, it so TOTALLY suits me please!! ORANGE somemore! =)Makes me really happy!! Love it PLEASE!!

NICE RIGHT! COOLER THAN COOL!

When i reached home, it was time to shower and get ready to head to Edwin's place.. I was really upset that 3 people could not come.. But felt better when i saw Mark and Syafiq.. Was even happier when Mark made it to OCS! Congrats to you Sexy Stuff!!

Then we headed down to load all the items including booze into my dad's van.. Delong drove down and we headed down to Edwin's place together!! Then Norman called me to say he not coming cause he broke up with Joyce.. I got a shock please and i just told him to take care.. Joyce also not coming, so its 5 people down..

Evening
Unloaded the items and was preparing for later on.. Chat with Mark, Delong and Syafiq.. Then suddenly Lisa went out and Charity came to me, telling me that it seems her mum wants her home.. I was really worried knowing Lisa and Godma having some war.. Lisa was so pissed when she talked on the phone, and the next moment when i went out, she told me her mother wanted her home, NOW.. I was like, does she know i have a celebration and its my birthday? I was so tempted to call Godma but Lisa told me not to cause she is very mad now.. Then she walked back into the house..

I tell you, i was so about to cry already.. It is like, Lisa, one of my bestie got to go? Why? Why can't i have a normal nice gathering with people whom i care for?! Then before the tears came, Lisa came out and say she was leaving, going to take a cab home and see if she can sneak back...

Next moment, i heard popping sounds and i saw Charity and Edwin standing with the cake at the door.. THEN I SAW MR POH, CHEN PEI, SYAFIQ FROM BAND, NORMAN AND JOYCE! WHA LAU! NORMALLY IS I PRANK PEOPLE LAH, NOW I KENA KARMA! KENA PRANK TO THE MAX UNTIL I WANNA CRY SIA! When i was already so happy that almost everyone came, NIGEL popped out from the back and i swear, I SCREAMED AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS.. I think thw whole Singapore might have heard me.. I WAS SO SO SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!

I got pranked by ALL of them and the mastermind is none other than CHARITY TAN HUI SUAN aka PINK CHICKEN! Well, this has made it really a very special birthday celebration with a shock factor of 10, 10 being the highest.. Thanks ah Charity.. Really thank you.. =)

Finally it was time to eat!! Norman was great to volunteer to start the fire and Mr Poh was splendid in being the chef.. Charity and Lisa were of great help too.. =p
Hahaz.. I am so happy that everyone enjoyed themselves.. I hope you guys did? Cause i did, i was really happy..

Bottoms up!

Then after all the food, it was booze time! Hahaz.. Chen Pei started to drink shots with me lah! And by the way, my shot glasses are like double shots.. Hahaz.. Drank with Mr Poh, Chen Pei, Charity, Lisa, Mark, Nigel and Syafiq.. Kena prank again when Charity offered to drink with me.. While i drank Vodka Neat, she was drinking PLAIN WATER! Stupid me..

I think i finished about the a vodka bottle on my own lah.. Was really damn giddy but did not stop.. Somehow, the inside of me was saying go ahead Sheryl, its your birthday and you KNOW you feel like getting wasted for once.. Even though i KNOW i should stop, i did not.. Despite concerns from Nigel and Mark to not get drunk, i still went ahead..


From Prima Deli! Very nice! Love mango cake!!
Then we cut the Mango cake my mum bought for me.. It was Delicious!! Despite being so giddy, i could still walk out to pass Mr Poh, Syafiq form band and Edwin the cake.. Not bad! =)

Was mentally sober, but physically could not control myself.. After getting seated down, i started to lose it.. Could not walk straight, could not stand straight at all.. Horrible man.. Then the next thing i recall, is me puking at the drain outside Edwin's house.. I was really puking everything out man, though i can recall saying bye to Mark, Delong, Syafiq and Nigel.. Can still remember Nigel and Syafiq smoking.. Hahaz.. Then they left and Mr Poh came back with Chen Pei..

I was still puking but was lead back to the house.. Then i puked at the porch which i think about it now, it was really gross!! Edwin transported me here and there, while Chen Pei took great care of me for me to feel better.. Thank you both..

Then i stumbled my way up, was showered, and then i knocked out! Did not even know that Felix came.. Sorry Felix, invite you then i like sleeping upstairs.. Hope you enjoyed yourself.. =)

Woke up in the middle of the night, and had a short but meaningful chat with Edwin.. Finally managed to voice out how i feel, with no barriers.. Under the influence of alcohol, anything is possible!

Thank you all.. the next post is dedicated to all of you.. =)

I WANT!

Okie, i shall make life easier for those who are comtemplating what to get me for my 20th Birthday!!

I Want:

Roy! (Cause he looks really good)
A two way ticket from Brisbane to Singapore and back for my 21st Birthday ( Cause its 2009/2009)
A Cantonese learning book.. Like those you bring to Hong Kong.. Just love the language! (For self improvement, wanna learn the language)A Tiara (For fun, cause i don't think i will win any beauty pageant)
A road bike (Cause i wanna do tri races with my OWN bike!)
An ipod (Cause my Zen SUCKS)High metabolism rate (So i can eat like a pig but not gain the weight)
Dunkin Donuts! (Cause they are even better than Donut Factory or J.Co Donuts)
Nokia 6600 Fold! (Cause that phone is like my old one, but i still love the old one..)
Nice earrings (Cause i look so ah lian in the long ones..)
Great job (Cause i want to love every minute that i am working)
1 Million Dollars (So i can study and my parents no need to worry bout financial)
Great health (Cause i wanna be healthy!)To star in a movie titled "Sheryl is Hot Stuff" or "The life in Springfield" (Cause i miss those great days)
A bouquet of orange roses (Cause i LOVE orange.. But got this colour?)
Freedom for my bestie (Cause she needs it)
Boyfriends for my besties (Cause they both NEED it) - so going to get killed
A birthday cake, baked by a loved one (Cause it is damn sweet)
My brother to be back to be able to celebrate with me (Cause i miss him)
Xue Ying to be back to celebrate (Cause the team is different without her)
Evee to be able to rest and have great colleagues (Cause she deserves all of them)
A trumpet (Cause i can boasts to the Clarinetists and French Hornist that I am the best) =p
All my friends to continue loving and caring for me! (Cause i LOVE AND CARE FOR ALL OF YOU!!)

Hahaz.. NO LAH! Just joking lah.. The bold ones are things i will want to do or get in life.. Just later part in life thats all..

The one in bold and italic is what i ULTIMATELY want for every birthday.. =) I miss all my polymates, cause we have not met up for like the longest period of time.. I miss my secondary school mates cause we all seem so busy in like now and i miss those naive days.. I miss my brother cause i just miss him, feels weird without him around.. I miss my Shanghai friends cause they took really great care of me..

I miss you, cause i don't wanna lose you.. But will i?

Just an update.

Well, last week has been a rather slack week.. Only worked on Tuesday and i fell ill after that.. Think it is the late nights and many mooncakes that i have been consuming.. Was busy doing up Charity's birthday present which i hope she loves it... And soon my birthday will come!! So exciting!! Still remember last year i celebrated my birthday overseas in Shanghai!! The mango mousse cake from Breadtalk.. Hahaz.. Nice gesture from all my internship-mates, but the cake was seriously way too moussy for me.. Hahaz... And i cannot remember is it too sour or too sweet... Hahaz..

The thought of me being overseas for my 21st birthday on 2009/2009 just kinda sucks... Its like i thought i could have a great big party for myself for the very first time, but i guess i will have to make do with the new friends that i am going to make overseas!! And i am sure Xue Ying would be there to celebrate with me... Hahaz... Think so far for what, the 20th birthday haven't even pass yet...

Well, to some people, birthdays are just a normal day.. My parents feel that way.. But to me, life is so unpredictable, you will never know if you would have the chance to celebrate anothr birthday, and even if you do, would the company of family and friends still be the same? Will they still be there for you? So yeah..

Its not about the expensive gifts, nor the expensive treats.. I am just not a materialistic girl and my friends all know that.. What matters most is the fun, joy and love that we all share.. Simple things like a handmade card or even a rock cake (hahaz) is able to make my day.. What matters most to me is my family and friends, and how much we enjoy each others company.. =)

I really miss the fun in secondary school where we would sabo one another.. The 2 birthday sabo episodes i remember the best were my birthday in Secondary 2, and Lisa's and Gim Kai's birthday in Secondary 4.. Secondary 2 was simple, yet very satisfying.. I was baked a cake that, well, did not turn out really like a cake.. Hahaz.. And was splashed with COLD water from the water cooler... It was really simple but great as i had friends around me and i seriously did not expect it...

Secondary 4 was really fun! We used ice cream and water to Sabo Lisa.. IT was damn damn funny!! And i knocked my nose when i slipped!! Hahaz!! Lisa, can REMEMBER not!! We were at the temporary holding school of Ping Yi and we had just finished band and the whole sabo episode started!! Best man!! The only thing i regret is i did not use Durian ice-cream.. Hahaz!



This year, i made presents that would last a lifetime for both my besties as i want our friendship to turn out the same way too.. =) I am so proud of the presents i made!! Hahaz. Discovered the artistic and DIY side of myself...



This week i will only be working 2 days, to cover up for my expenses i am going to spend at the end of this week.. Hahaz... Can't wait for all the gathering action that is going to happen at the end of the week!! Cannot wait for time to fly past!! Wednesday going to hang out with Charity and Lisa!! Yeah!! Saturday going to hang out with bandmates!!

Life just gets better! And i am getting fatter! Hahaz..

AHM 2008

I participated in the Army Half Marathon this year and can i please tell you it is very disappointing to me.. I thought tha the army would plan the event well, but i was so wrong.. Among all the races i have participated in, this is the worst plan ever.. Too many people were flagged off at the same time causing a massive jam, water points were not strategically set up, some water points were too small, the marshalls do not cheer for the runners and it was a massive cluster f***.. But there were some water stations that were great, being well spreaded out, ensuring that runners got their water and stuff.. Some of them can still sing and cheer for the runners...

Maybe i should not judge too much as after all, ALOT of the poor army men are FORCED to take part in this race to either run, be water/aid stations or route marshals... I was so dumb and innocent, that i actually believed that the race tag of these army men would write: FORCED TO RUN... How dumb....


I am so glad and honoured that i had Evelyn with me for the WHOLE 21km!! We burned 1500 Calories babe!! 1400 for me as i ate a Banana Stawberry GU Gel that tastes great! Hahaz... I so felt like giving up at the tar route but you kept me going babe... Thank you so much for encouraging me and always staying by my side, LITERALLY i mean.. Hahaz!! Running with you always give me the inspiration to move on!!! Love ya babe!! You can still help me siam here and there so that we can find space to run... I am so0o0o0o0o0o0o00o0o0o looking forward to running the full marathon with you!!

The worst runners to be with is the Veteran Men... They like a bunch of animals running out of the zoo.. Very ill-mannered and rough.. Bang here, knock there, buah the sweat on you.. GROSS!!

After that we went back to the car to take our items.. Thank you Thomas for allowing us to use your car as a locker!! =) Evelyn and i then went to change and wash up a little... Her facial foam just made my day even better and fresher!! Hahaz!! Then i met up with YOU and we headed back home together!! Missed you so much... The journey home was really enjoyable and funny.. Mostly cause YOU were suaning me! Hahaz... You still owe me a 30sec twister... =p Thanks for sending me back home all the way!

After showering, my family and I headed off to have BAH KUT TEH for lunch!! We went to the famous Tiong Bahru Bah Kut Teh and had a GREAT time!! The food was SUPERB and after running 21km, you are just so hungry that everything tastes GREAT!! Hahaz... Lunch with family is always great and the time spent together is so precious..




Headed home, washed my extremely muddy shoe and then i went over to your place!! My knees were so aching please!! Climbing up and down the stairs really was tough... Hahaz... Plonked on your bed and we both konked out within minutes.. Then your mother asked if we wanted dinner and we went to Ubin Seafood for dinner!!

Food was great and i do reccommend you to try it out... It is at Changi hawker centre there... Dinner was great and your mum is a pleasure as usual... After that we headed back and watched the Olympic Closing Ceremony which was really boring... When it ended, we were both so tired that we knocked out soon after...

It has been a great day and i know i am going to be in great pain for the next few days, but it is all worth it.. =)

OLYMPICS

OMG! This year's Olmpics is ultra exciting please!! It seems that we might have a chance of getting an award in the Table Tennis match... Watching the game now, so exciting please!!! Even though they are not locals, but well, as long as you have the money, you can buy talent right? Hahaz...

I got new idol this year, Feng Tian Wei... She is great man! More composed than Li Jia Wei.... I love them both!! Hahaz... Okie, better get back to the match and pray very very hard that Singapore wins!! Cause we will!!!

AND WE DID WIN!!!

Emcee-ing

Well, i am back at Victoria Concert Hall again last evening to be the Master of Ceremony for the Honour Bands in Concert and Awards Ceremony.. It was a hectic start in the beginning, but managed to end in a good note.. =)


Love the oufits!


Well, Miss Sia and Edwin said i sounded fierce over the mike last week, so i got to sound more warming and happier... Hmmm, up till now i can't really hear the difference, maybe because when i speak i do not listen i guess.. Hahaz.. Well, at least it was really great to hear from Miss Sia that i sounded so much better last night... Its a compliment...

Hahaz.. Another comment that made my day or night rather was from Twang's parents.. Saying i look mature and my English is very good!! Yeah!! Hahaz.. Not possible without the Mango dress and the help from Edwin for the emcee script.. Thank you! =)

So as we were back stage, i was really bored and started to snap snap photos as usual... Hahaz... Had quite a fun night, at least back stage got more people as compared to last week... =)


Geraldine and Me!


Babes of the night..


Hunks of the night..

After the concert, we went for dinner and i had Carl's Junior please!! I can't believe i almost finished a whole burger after the amount of fries that i ate... Hahaz... Guess i was really hungry last night... Then we headed to Great World City Goldden Village to catch THE BLACK KNIGHT..

This is a MUST WATCH movie.. But please go with a clear and alert mind to catch the storyline.. It has many hidden meaning and twists to it.. Girls, Bruce Wayne is SO HOT please!! He is REALLY handsome.. And there is the other good guy too, Harvey... HOT ALSO PLEASE!! Hahaz... It was quite funny that i kept getting shocked during the movie..

Oh wells.. That is about it... Haiz, suddenly miss Lisa and Charity loads... Okie, maybe not suddenly, but for quite a while le... We NEED to meet up babes... Yeah... Need the dosage of the girls gossips and chats... And Ian, i wanna eat strawberry shortcake!! =)

Crazy 2 weeks..

I have been chionging work for the past 2 weeks and i earned about 700 plus.. But as usual, the money does not stay long in my account and i am only left with 500 plus... Hahaz.. So loser right... What is the point of earning money when you cannot save it... Oh wells, should curb my spending already...

My STUPID laptop got problem again.. The same problem where the A button has a life of its own.. So i sent it down for repair AGAIN... FREAKING far can! The both of us just got lost and we were walking under the scorching sun lah!

Anyway, you are finally out after like s0o0o0o0oo freaking long... Though you are out for a long weekend, but we both are like so busy with our own lives that u doubt we would be spending much time together... But i guess its fine, after all we kinda got to get used to it since i will be really away soon... Yeap...

In this 2 weeks, i bought 6 months worth of contacts suitable for people with astigmatism, a pair of heels, a dress cum blouse and 2 sets of bikini!! Okie, the bikini is more of a gift then i buy... Thanks love... Although you know i really don't feel good when you spend so much money on me... But i really appreciate all the things you have done for me so far... Thanks for making me feel that i do matter... Thanks for making me feel valued and treasured for... =) I love you...

This is just a really short update on what had happened for the past 2 weeks... Just working and training and thats it...


Okie, now i have come to the main reason that i feel like blogging today...

Don't know why i am feeling so peeved... Was having a really perfect day till i was waiting for bus 15 home which took freaking long... As usual, nothing to do so i started thinking, then i became so pissed and sore.. Its like, i was suddenly overwhelmed with alot of thoughts and feelings that made me so peeved...

So many things has been happening ever since i came back.. I got to know of information that i never knew... Though these information cut and hurt me deep, i am glad i got to know them... All i can say is that, during the past 3 years in my polytechnic school life, i have made many friends.. Those that care, those that don't, those that i am close to, those that i am not close to... Friends that i trusted so much, and friends that betrayed/abused the trust... I even made a group of 'friends' who posed as friends.. But in fact behind my back stab me like there is no tomorrow... In other words, i made many friends that are hypocrites... Those who SEEM close to you and care for you, but with a different group of friends, they stab you like you are a dummy, cause it does not hurt them a single bit... But it is thanks to these hypocrites that i have learned to accept the fact that me pinning hopes that things can go back to the way they were is just IMPOSSIBLE... It has helped me to move on and get attached to a new group, a group that i should not have detached myself away in the first place... Morale of the story, Friends can turn into enemies, and enemies can turn into friends...

I am sorry if i am so distant away now.. Once bitten, twice shy.. Or should i say twice bitten instead.. I don't know... I just do not wish to get involved, because getting involved = getting hurt... I don't know whether i am a bitch or slut in all of your eyes, but i am really too weak, sick, tired and afraid to suffer a blow right smack in the face again... Picking up isn't easy...

It's through these hard times when i was trying too hard to cope with the change and the information overload that i found you... You never once pressured me to do something that i did not want to do... Even when you felt so strong for us to give it a shot, you respected how i felt and gave me time, NEVER ONCE rushing me to make a decision or to answer you... Thanks love, you are great..

I am glad that i was accepted with open arms back to band to help the juniors.. Not from Springfield, but Ping Yi.. I appreciate the support and chance i was given to come back to help, and feel valued by the members.. My trumpeters, you guys and girls just rock.. Thank you..

The alumni like Mr Poh, Syafiq, Felix, Norman, Zach, Farzana, Chang Yuan, Khairul my son and Qi Zheng... You guys have made it easier for me to pick up and get back in my feet again... You guys might not know it, but hanging out with you guys just makes my day.. Those movie, interrogation and Al-ameen days... Kinda miss you guys cause i have not seen you all for quite some time...

To the best babes and hunk in my life, Charity, Lisa and Ian... You three are just the strongest pillars in my life other than my family... My constant pillar of support no matter what happens... Having my back always and keeping me on track.. Ensuring that i do not land into hands of bad vibes... Just wanna tell three of you how fortunate i am to have besties like the 3 of you.. I love you all... I really do not know what i would do if i lost any of you... I have got your backs to and i will support the three of you all the way, till i land my ass in the coffin... Hahaz...

Evelyn, i have not seen you like for AGES please.. I miss you babe.. I miss chatting with you, telling you how i feel and just sharing with you.. Hope you are doing great right now.. We should meet up soon.. Hahaz... Training for our marathon date?? Hahaz... Take care babe, thanks for providing me with the listening ear even though you are so busy and tired after work... Smiles!!

Okie, as usual, i am still not able to suck it up... Forgive, forget and just let go of it Sheryl... Hogging on and thinking about it will only make you feel more sore, not better.. Accept the fact that you made a decision, accept the fact that it is not going to change.. Choices have consequences, as long as you do not regret it, it is perfectly fine... I REALLY do not regret the decision made, but i am just feeling sore, like a loser...

Cheer up, smiles.. You got more waiting for you then just to sulk.. Move on babe!!

Incentive!

I am being BRIBED by Ian to send them off to Taiwan tomorrow... My reward, Lemon Creme that he made with love...



Entice me...

Eh, Ian and Rennie, must buy tai yang bing, taiwan jelly and pineapple tarts for me okie!! Thanks!!


Tomorrow is going to be an EXCITING and JOYOUS day!! I simply can't wait!!

Great dinner!!

Today's dinner has been s0o0o0o0o0 freking wonderful!! Though it is only the 4 of us, it was great... At first, we were supposed to have Mark, Syafiq, Delong, Ashikah, Lisa, Aishah and boyfriend, and finally me! But in the end it was only Mark, Syafiq, Delong and me!

Went to Oriental to take pay with Rennie then i met Delong.. Has been a while since i met you!! We chat, updated one another about our lives, got him a CD for his birthday prezzie, he treat me to Gloria Jean's coffee which is really good, and we went to the arcade!! Hahaz.. Spent like 2 hours together before we met Syafiq and Mark..


Today is a gathering to celebrate Mark going into army, Syafiq's passing out parade and Delong's birthday!! Hahaz!! We had beer as a beverage..



For food, we ordered beef, chicken and prawn satay with ketupat... Sambal stingray, sambal sotong, kailan in oyster sauce and la-la!! Hahaz.. We ate s0o0o0oo much that we are like so full lah!!

We ate and chat at the same time, was really a fruitful time spent together between the 4 of us... Though we do not have alot of people, but it was good enough to make tonight a great one... Thank you so much guys... I wish you all the very best for your future endeavours... MARK!! Must go into OCS okie?!?!?! This despo here really desperate to go for a commissioning ball once in this lifetime!! Hahaz... Got all my hopes on you brother! Hahaz... Okie lah, i don't be evil.. Just do your very best and i am sure you will be just fine...

I am still so bloated from dinner!! Hahaz.. Have been eating quite alot lately. think gain weight le... Darn!! Hahaz... But it has all been so worthwhile.. Thank you all guys.. =)


LOVE THIS PHOTO!!

My little thoughts...

All of a sudden, this thought came to me... Should i have made the decision to leave in July? Should i have not defer my studies? Maybe if i decided to leave earlier, such a thing would not happen.. Maybe if i decided to leave sooner, we would not be spending time trying to solve such a matter that should not have happened.. Or maybe, HISTORY IS REPEATING ITSELF, that i need to go through this again before i go overseas.. Can't i just have more happy moments before i freaking leave?

We started off as band mates together, then became classmates.. Over the years we got closer, then we kinda split, then we got closer again.. Now, our friendship is being put to the test.. I would have to say that all 3 of us has contributed to what has happened today.. During secondary school days, we were close, but often the two of you cannot go out till late and stuff as you girls have parents who are more strict than mine.. But i totally understand and accept that fact... Hence i usually spend my time out with the band guys... But still, we had many fun moments together be it in school, during lesson, during band or even out of school.. All the bubble tea moments, the days we would compete whose section is better, getting scolded by Mr DELIBERATELY and stuff... Yes, we were having the time of our life...

Then, we all moved on, you 3 went to JC, i was the only one in Poly.. We really drifted apart.. I do not know whether you 2 felt the same, but i felt so alone in this world for that period of time cause i simply LOST 3 of my best friends in a snap... I survived with this for more than a year, then i finally got closer to both of you again... Though close, we do not often meet up...

There are various times when i ask you all out, but due to all of your busy schedule, the plans never worked out.. Lisa, you were really busy with school and your jc besties.. Charity, you were really busy with school and church... That is totally understandable... But after planning and planning, then getting rejected and rejected, i had to admit i felt really sian of planning... If you girls noticed, when you girls plan to go out, i will ask you all to plan then tell me the details... Matter of fact, i was sick and tired of planning, and getting rejected...

But i learn to accept it, and have since moved on.. I KNOW that you girls are busy, so when we can't meet, it is normal, but when we really meet, it is a real joy to me... Before i left Shanghai, i am grateful for all the times you girls sacrificed to be with me... When i came back, you girls strated to be busy wit exams and after that we started to meet up again.. When i was very troubled and down, two of you came to me and gave me the support that i needed..

Charity, you are often busy with your church stuff since secondary school days.. Even though i am not a Christain, i respect your faith in God and the committment that you have.. Often, i would ask you two to go out, but you would have alot of commitments and at the end of the day, only left with lisa and i.. After a while, it became a known to me that you would be busy and i slowly, but UNKNOWINGLY started to forget to call you out as i felt that you would be busy with Church stuffs again... You are also very close to your church friends like Bernice, Rachel and more.. I remember you once told me that no matter how close we girls are, you always feel that they are closer to you.. *BAM* This hit me hard, but nothing wrong right? I mean, you have known them for such a long time, way before you knew Lisa or me, its natural for you to be closer than them... And there was this perios of time when we would plan when to go out and stuff, already confirmed... Then few days down, you would call or sms to say you are busy and stuff and in the end we kena pang seh.. Not once, nor twice, but a few times.. I will admit this pissed me off as i was looking so forward to meeting you all, but the plan has to be cancelled... Because we kena pang seh, only left Lisa and me, so just the two of us go out.. After a while, it became a habit unknowingly..

I am NOT trying to explain nor self-redeem.. I am asking ALL of us including myself to think about how we have contributed to the problem.. I am frustrated that things has turned out this way.. Lisa and I came today, wanting to settle it fast cause you told me before that you like to settle things fast... We called, knocked and waited, but i guess you were just too pissed to reply or call us back..

Whether or not this friendship is still important to you, its in your hands.. To me, it is VERY VERY important, too important that no words can express,.. I WANT to settle things fast, but do you? I have lowered my wall, to apologise and wanting to make an effort to change, would you give us the chance? Lisa and i have so much to say, but are you willing to listen?

I am pissed, yet upset at the same time.. I don't know how i am really feeling, but all i know is that, you, Charity, is not a BEST friend i want to lose.. NEVER.

Lisa, you too, a BEST friend that i would NEVER want to lose..

I CANNOT imagine if i ever lost any of you, can you?

Dedication to Ian...

Many years have passed and i have known this guy since secondary school please.. We have been friends since secondary 2 till now and i have decided to dedicate this entry to him as he did one for me... =)

Year 2002:
We were nominated to become counsellors and we had to attend some leadership program thing.. So that is when we all got started and i knew him as a friend, in fact, i knew him as an Indian Dancer.. Hahaz... We were playing some teamwork game that involved ropes and we are all entangled, so he decided to be the Indian Dancer and started to hop around to get all of us untangled.. It was really funny and I can still remember the fun that we had, laughing our heads off...

Year 2003:
We were both nominated to become Executive Committee members of the Student Council.. Ian was the Noble Secretary while i was the loan shark (Treasurer).. Due to some events, my position changed to the Vice-president... So we worked really closely in the council and we started to get closer as friends.. Went out for meals, happenings, plan events, meetings and stuff.. Soon after that, we started to take tuition together and were really close... Lisa, Ian and I were the three musketeers! Hahaz...

At the later part of the year, Ian also joined the band and that made all of us EVEN closer please... It was like, we were all stuck together during school and after school... Life was just so interesting and fun! We also worked together to gossip about the teachers we do not like and plan attacks on them which never ever happened... Hahaz...

Year 2004:
The peak of my secondary school life and i am glad to share it with him... We were all so into band that we worked so freaking hard for that darn gold award for the Singapore Youth Festival competition... I remember him playing the baritone saxaphone which looked like a tenor saxaphone on him... Hahaz.. Those days where we would chiong down after school, grabbing cup noodles as lunch before heading down to the holding Ping Yi Secondary School... Then after band we would have dinner together with my god sons and we would have so much fun!!

We were also very busy with council work as we had many events to plan and stuff... We were involved in band all the way till National Day Performance then we stopped and got ready for our O'levels examinations..

Year 2005:
We chose the same course and went to the same polytechnic.. It was such a coincidence but i am glad i made the right choice.. Yeah!! Hahaz.. So we were in the same course for full 3 years but never once got into the same class, thouch we were always in the same lecture group for the full 3 years..

Year 2007:
Internship... As what Ian said, i decided to give it a try since he applied for it.. And i really got it.. We have put in so much effort to get our asses there!!

When i was there, i was really emotional as i could not cope.. But i was glad that he was there and gave me the emotional support when i needed it... The closeness between us is indescribable to me... We are very close, NOT like boyfriend and girlfriend, but like siblings, like best friend to the max... He was really my pillar of strength when i was there... Thank you my friend...

I remember your schedule was more similar to Pei Lin, but no matter how you two still did your very best to include me into your outings so that i do not feel left out... The many fun, laughter and joy we had... I am thankful for the times you stood by me when i needed that support, i knew that you always have got my back... You have mine too friend...

Remember going shopping at Yuyuan, Qi Pu Lu, waking up at 7am to eat Xiao Long Bao during winter, making jokes about brocolli, doing housework, going gym, slacking in the room the whole day and so much more?! Hahaz.. Life in Shanghai could not get any better without you being there... With you being there as my friend, brother, fashion consultant, chef, dessert maker, housework partner, gym partner, food partner and so much more, what else could i ask for man..

Celebrating my birthday, Christmas and New Year was such an experience and i am glad i had you there to share it with me.. The day we flew back, we still had our celebratory SNAPPLE drink.. Hahaz!!

Thank you for tolerating all my nonsense and me counting down on the days to flying back to Singapore.. I know i have been a emo spider, but you have been great...

Year 2008 to future:
Ever since we came back, we have been meeting for food and stuff.. Going out and having many fun sessions that just makes us live life to the fullest with Lisa...

I know we would have more sessions to come... Though i would LOVE to have you at University of Queensland with me, i know it is not possible.. If only you could go with me, we would explore the country when we are free, have cooking sessions together, go shopping together, have many hee hee ha ha sessions together and so much more... Again, you would be a very important friend in my life, being there to support me when i fall and become emotional, getting me back on track... Speaking of it is already making me so excited, imagining how exciting life would be!! Wha, if you could go, we would at least be school mates for 8 and a half years!!

Now, you are moving on to the next phase of life, army.. I wish you all the best my friend, for you to become and Officer and all. YES i would LOVE, no, i would DIE to go for your commissioning ball, provided i am in Singapore... May you always have luck, proserity, happiness and health to follow you down the future years ahead of our journey...

I am SURE that we have many more happening sessions to come before you enter army and before i fly off.. I just want to say thank you for being such a great friend, brother, chef, fashion consultant and pillar of strength.. Please continue this role yeah? Hahaz...

Thank you for everything, eben if i do not say it often, i believe you know that i have always appreciated your existence.. Smile my friend, life is just going to get better for all of us, especially out hee hee ha ha sessions!! Stay as happening, happy and talented as ever...

Oh, please TEACH me to bake.. We plan s0o0o0o0o0o0o much in Shanghai, but i only learn how to make Kueh Lapis.. Banana and walnut cake or muffin is next on the list!! Love ya loads my friend!! You are the best baker i ever known!! Keep that flame and passion alive cause i admire at how talented you are!! Smiles!!

Birthday Party of Felix!

Well, yesterday was Felix's Birthday Party!! It was a great gathering with the others such as Farzana, my son Khairul, Chang Yuan, Benedict and more... The food was not fantatic, but i guess it is not that bad either... Hahaz.. People's birthday i shall not be evil...

The real partying only started later in the night when we decided to open up the booze baby!! Went to pick Lisa up and we started the partying babe!! We both had a tequila shot each, made by me!!! Hahaz.. Before that i had a cup of Vodka Ruby Red with sprite... But i think the amount i drink cannot compare with the guys man.. Mr Poh and Edwin like had at least 10 Tequila Gold Shots!! And before that, at least 2 to 3 cups of Vodka Ruby Red with Ice-cream Soda... Shortly after that, the both of them were drunk...

Edwin knocked out and Mr Poh was still standing.. But he was drunk.. Hahaz.. I escaped all the drunk fun as i went to Al-ameen with Lisa and we had Naan!! Greedy ah... Hahaz... Then we saw Benedict, Kai Yee and thier friend... Hahaz... Quite funny ah...

After that i walk Lisa back to her place where we strated to take photos as usual and were chatting about everything in life... This is the year for RE-KINDLED love baby!! Hahaz!! You know what i mean ah... =)

So after that Syafiq and birthday boy felix came to fetch me back... Went back, checked on him and he seems fine... So i went down to help clear up and chat around... I kinda learn alot of things... Hahaz... Good or bad, i do not know, but i am glad i did learn new stuffs... Though not all the information i was very erm, comfortable about.. But yeah...

We chat till like 5am then we decided to sleep.. But the room was so cold that i kept waking up sia.. Like every half an hour i would wake up or squirm here and there to cough... Hahaz.. But it was comfortable... Then morning wake up at 8 am, but really woke up at 930 to go eat Kway Chup at Siglap!! Lisa supposed to join us lah, but that pig as usual cannot wake up know.. Hahaz!!

So now i am home... Going to escape theme park for fun!! Have been having such an exciting life that i really do not care that i am still sick!! Hahaz!!

Hello!!

Sorry for MIA-ING...

Memories...

I was bored so i decided to surf you tube and find the video of Titans Military Band in Singapore Youth Festival 2004.. Wha, it really brings back much memories man... All the sweat, tears, henta exercises, joy, music and so much more!! I really miss those moments that we shared together.. Working together as a team, as Titans Military Band... We achieved the GOLD AWARD and went into the FINALS!!

It was really tought, but it was really fun and worth it.. I remember that was the only year i got so high that i suffered from over exhuastion during one of the camps... I remember we saboing Lisa with ice cream and water as it was her birthday and i knocked my nose against the sink... I remember Edwin and I working really hard to perfect our solos in Firebird...

All the tears shed as a band member, friend and sectional leader.. The nights we spend at Benedict's house to prepare the uniform parts and all.. The marching from morning till night.. Rushing down from school.. Marching in the soccer field that was a mud pool and having centipedes crawling all over our legs.. Stinking up the public transport with our sweat smell.. Hahaz.. All those were just great..

After viewing the video, i feel like re-living the process again... All the teamwork, pain, joy and all.. We WERE the BEST BATCH in the history of Ping Yi and Springfield Secondary!

If you guys have the time, watch the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oqE1rMqCGE8

At the 3.10 min mark, got solo!! I am on the right, the one facing the video with the trumpet!!

Hahaz... I am amazed by how straight our dresings were, how perfect our rotations were and how united we were.. We were small in numbers, but we were loud and strong!! I miss the moments.. Band in 2003 and 2004 were the best... Such memories live on forever!!

I am glad to ever have that experience.. =)

Enlightenment...

I found the reason behind everything:

Because Sheryl already has such a bad reputation. no harm making her reputation worse, after all it acts to everyone's advantage except her... Let her carry my mistake instead and save my innocent self..

Thank you so much.. If it makes you happier and better, go ahead..

Great Day!

Today i had a great day! I spent the beginning of the day with my mum where we went to have kaya toast for lunch!! Shoik man!!! Then we decided to go to Times Bookstore as there was a 25%sale going on and i bought another 2 books to read.. Now, i have 3 and a 1/2 book to complete!! Yeah!!

After that we decided to cook the nian gao that i bought like ages ago.. Went to buy the spring roll skin and started to help my mum in the preparation.. It was fun, but it turned out extremely oily and i felt damn guilty after having 2 pieces.. Hahaz.. Oh wells, life is short, just enjoy... =)

For dinner, i went to meet up with Lisa and Charity!! Oh my goodness, i MISS you babes so much can!! Thanks for making time for me despite your busy schedule and upcoming exams.. Thanks for being there for me when i need you babes.. Even though how busy you babes are, i know that you girls care and i have got your back always babes... Thank you!!

We went to Botak Jones at Bedok... Erm, the food was not FANTASTIC, but it was not bad.. The fries were shoik please!! I had a mug of beer while Lisa had Teh Peng and Charity had Ribena... We tried the Cajun Chicken and the Botak Jones Burger... I had the burger and it was okie, just that after conquering the whole plate, i am like damn freaking full... While dining there, we were chatting and making so much noise that the guy at the other table kept staring at us.. I think we need to go soundproof room to dine man... With Miss Charity and her high pitch voice, i swore the whole world could hear... HAHAZ!!

Then we decided to cross the road to head back to the interchange... While crossing the road it was drizzling and like SUDDENLY it rained cats and dogs and we were like running for our lives lah!!! It was damn funny lah!! It kinda reminded us of the Leap Years... Hahaz.. Like why so drama know.. Then we walked a bit more and decided to head home...

I followed Lisa to her place and was offered DARN GOOD duck soup cooked by GOD MA and the greedy me failed to resist... So i took a bowl, and also ate a slice of darn good Launa Chocolate Cake.. SHOIK!! I am like so going to explode now, drinking hawthorn tea to aid digestion.. TOO FULL!!

I had a great night babes.. Updating one another about each others life.. And i thought about it, when it is the right person, we will know for one another.. =) Joke of the day: Is Mus a Catholic???
HAHAZ!! I LOVE YOU BABES!! S0o00o0o0oo0o FREGGING MUCH!!!

Bad day...

Today i woke up at like 530am to get ready for this camp held at Pasir Ris Park.. Oh my goodness, i cant believe i manged to wake up so early!! Hahaz.. I was supposed to be a belayer, if that is how it is spelt... But then there were some cock ups and evee and i had to wait for about 1 hour plus for further instuctions... LIKE what the hell right.. Yeah.. Hahaz..

So i was told to take over a camp instructor and assume that role till like 5pm today.. So i did what i was told and i must say that i am so blessed to have survived and be able to blog right now.. It was like raining so heavily at like 1 plus and it never really stopped will 3 plus.. Then activities resumed at 430 and i had to leave at 5.. So yeah.. Was about to go training then we found out that some kuku-naden might have took evee's shoe bag by mistake... So we began on a frantic search and still we could not find.. Evee, don't worry, lets pray hard that the kuku-naden will faster realise that the shoe bag has been wrongly taken! Hahaz...

Anyway, i have to say that the secondary school that i helped out today is HORRENDOUS! I have never seen a bunch of students that restless before man.. I can proudly say that my secondary school is so much better... The planning of the camp is also rather disorganized and this has caused alot of blurness in everyone.. A camp has a first aid corner, but don't have a camp instuctor in charge of that place? That is like so weird lah! But its okie, cause its over...

Okie, i am damn tired.. Both physically and mentally... So i shall have an early night today... I hope..

Disappointed...
Hurt..

Trying to blog for fun

Okie, i know i can blog but i am unable to view my blog.. So i decided to be naoless and just post this entry for fun..

Take care my friends.. It is finally the end of October and the start of November...

Flight information...

Just for my friends to know, hahahz... I know i very thick skin, like making you guys send me off or pick me up... But just for your information,

Departure MU546 10th September 2007 Monday 1010(24hr)
Arrival MU545 25th January 2008 Friday 1515(24hr)

Okie, my job is done... Hahaz!!!! So sad that my parents would not be able to welcome me back as they will be in Taiwan... Hahaz...

Exams are over

Yeah! Finished the last paper today, damn high can.. But i very scared though that i will not do well... Haiz, worried in a sense that it will affect my internship... Sian man, but touch wood lah ah....

From today, i have exactly 13 days to spend with my friends and families... Hahaz... Need to start to buy the stuffs that i need, must chiong!!!

For those who still have papers, jia you... The effort is all worth it... Smiles!!!

Gor has left...

Just came back from the airport, emo, sad and really really unstable now... Just send him off to his new journey and i am very glad for him... I am really proud to have such a brother like him, i would like to thank God for giving me such a great brother that no one can ever replace in my heart, in my life...

I thought i could be strong to cope with it and not cry at all, but i failed... When gor was hugging everyone, i was still alright... IT was when he hugged my granny that made me cry, because my granny cried... Crying is really contagious... Then my bro hugged his girlfriend and was about to leave... Well, it is my very last chnace to hug him for today, or another few months to come... So i decided to hug him and both of us were like emo spiders and started breaking down... Have not cried so badly for a very long time... But i guess, it shows how much my brother means to me...

I am all alone in my room now, knowing that my brother is really physically not here anymore... The weather is not helping either as it is going to rain soon... I know he will be coming back like next year, but it is really long to me... We had many fun sessions together, disturbing one another, making noises to irritate our parents and so much more... I miss you gor, and loads... Really... Even though i do not say it at all, i guess you would be able to see from the tears that were flowing out...

I am so supposed to study now, but i really got no mood.. My eyes are swollen, tired and painful... I am emotionally tired, physically too... But i promised that i will do my brother proud...

SO WAKE UP SHERYL!!! STOP BEING AN EMO SPIDER AND START STUDYING!!! Be strong and cheer up... You got to move on with life...

Great evening

Rush Hour 3 rocks man! It is an extremely funny show and i have always loves it since the first one... I practically laughed till i could feel my lungs in pain... There was a joke regarding Lance Armstrong and i think only Xue Ying, Jonathan and me understood it... We were like 3 idiots laughing so loudly as only the 3 of us got the joke... Hahaz... Only triatheletes would understand the joke better i gues... Hahaz...

Then we went to have dinner at Simei East Point and walked to Xue Ying house... Met Kaiwen and Wilson and we started our majong quest.... As usual, Sheryl always loses the most money unless Wei Yang is present... Hahaz... So round 1 with Kaiwen, Wilson, Xue Ying and Jonathan, i lost the most money... But not so bad... Then, the lovely but not so happening couple left, so squid took over... Then Xue Ying decided to change seats with squid and her luck came rolling into her hands... She like won so much from us... Not only her, Jonathan and Squid too!!! Angry!!! CAUSE MOST OF THE TIME THE WINNING TILE IS I GIVE ONE! To the extent that i was only left with 60+ chips... That is ultimate sad can...

Then we decided to sleep at 3.50am as we had to wake up a little earlier today... Toes were freezing in the night but lucky it was manageable... When i go Shanghai and it is winter, i think i will just freeze to death... Hahaz... So must train from now!!!

Then Xue Ying, Jonathan and me went for breakfast, then went home and now i am blogging... It was a wonderful night out and i think there is only 4 more weekends to play majong and off we go!!! I am surely going to miss my majong khakis... Haiz... But that is life... When i come back, play a few more weekends then the guys going army le... Hahaz... That is how time flies... FAST!

Okie, got to go study for a test tomorrow... Meanwhile, take care my friends and hope to see you all soon!! =)

*She do me... True... If you're hot...* - a joke that only 4 of us know...

Too angry

Today, i started off my morning quite badly...

Wake up, arm kinda could not move... Have been sleeping on my left side for the past two days and my back don't really feel good without tossing and turning... Hence i missed my lesson which is my fault... Okie...

Then i receieved a phonecall at 9 plus and it was from my OB tutor... Miss Ho is a darn nice person but i just do not understand why some of them just got a grudge against her... Well, perception error i guess, whatever...

She was like, i have known that your group went to see the subject leader without my knowledge, i would need to see your whole group today... I stunned as i did not go to see the subject leader! Then i remembered my group leader mentioning that we should see the subject leader to show our SINCERITY... So i replied erm, i think so.. So my tutor was like, okie, fine, then please come and see me after school today...

When i ended the conversation, i know something is wrong.... I have a feeling that my tutor was just saying that she was going to find the subject leader to scare us.. I mean, we handed up the report late, it is really our fault and we have no right to argue... Never mind, so i sms my groupmates and found out that they really did go and see the subject head without me there and without me knowing... Call that a group...

Fine, so i went to school, had lecture, then was asking my group leader why did she go and see the subject leader? I mean, when you asked me that question, i already said no, we should not as we might be making things big.. Maybe our tutor did not intend to tell in the first place!!! Response: no, we should tell, show our SINCERITY..

Fine, i was fucked up and pissed already... Then i say maybe our tutor was trying to scare us so we will learn... Then my group leader can say: then it is her fault to say she will discuss with the subject leader but not do it.. She say what she must do what... *FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND* Wouldn't it be good if she was just to scare us and not make thing big? Sometimes i really wonder how the human brain works...

So we went to see our tutor and i love the comments she made... She say, why did you all go and find the subject leader, didn't i promise that i will talk to her and get it settled with asap then inform your group? Then a groupmate had to say, WE THOUGHT IT WOULD SHOW OUR SINCERITY... *FUCK WITH THE SINCERITY SHIT* Then my tutor ask, so what did the subject leader tell you.. I replied with i do no know, i was not there.. Can ask my group leader.. I know i very bitch, but i am sorry, you guys started it first...

Then she said by doing that, you guys are not showing me(my tuor) respect... I TOTALLY agree with what she say lah!!! I was extemely tempted to say, told you all already but NO, don't want to take my opinion into consideration.. Fine, so be it... I am just glad that my brains are much more sensible...

I am glad that it has been settled though we have to face the consequences by deduction of marks.. Okie, our fault, we deserve it... I am also to be blame and i do not deny it...

To sum up:

REALLY FUCKED UP WITH MY GROUP
FUCKED UP WITH MYSELF
FUCKED UP WITH SCHOOL
FUCKED UP WITH PROJECT
FUCKED UP DAY
Equals to my day... I am so damn pissed that i could really use a punching bag... Though i have to say that there are only 2 people in the group that i am not pissed with, the only one of the different gender and the only name that has 4 characters...

bad day

Today is ultimately not a good day... I started off with a happy morning as usual as i was looking forward for training... Then we had consultation in the morning which was quite screwed... I mean, she had the report for like the past 2 months, now then she tell us our mistakes when submission is thia friday... Dumb lah... Never mind, so we decided to edit lots of what we had done...

Then we went for lunch... Was happily eating and when i finished my meal, i was asking, so have we submitted our OB report... My group leader kinda forgot it as it slipped her mind i guess... From her expression it was quite obvious that she did not remember... Then i asked again what time do we have to submit it, and she said by 12pm.... So i decided to get the report files and done with and was ready to submit... Then i receieved a phonecall from our tutor... She asked " Sheryl, where are you?" And i replied with i am on my way to submit the report... Then she kinda got pissed and said "DO YOU KNOW THE REPORT IS DUE AT 10AM?! YOUR GROUP IS 2 HOURS LATE" And i stunned... So i decided to run up to submit and explain to her... Was climbing up the stairs and i happily tripped and fell... Then luckily Veronica was with me hence she took the report and went to submit it...

Well, i am with bruises now on my right side of my arm and thigh.. Not deep, but bruised and painful.. Hahaz... Then when Veronica came down, she gave us a piece of bad news... That we would be at least marked 2 grades down.. I almost broke down at that moment of time as i dd not want to lose my chance of going to Shanghai...

Then we decided to go and see our tutor to apologise to her... Our whole group thought that the submission deadline is at 12pm when it is at 10am... Seriously, i have never made such a STUPID MISTAKE yet... It is just so pissing off.... Then when i went to see my tutor with the whole group, my tutor was so angry that it really scared me... Then i broke down as i do not want to score badly... OB is the only project that we have the most confidence in...

Haiz... The rest of the day was normal and i did not swim.... Stupid shit... Race is just this Sunday.... Sometimes i wonder, when matters like this happens, whose fault is it? I would say that i am at fault too, cause i was too dumb to relay on others but not myself...

SCREW THIS SEMESTER AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO END!!! DREADING EACH DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

EXCITING DAY CAN!

Today is ultimate exciting can!!! Hahaz… Last night play majong until like 530… Morning had to go for project… Not so happening yet… Then!!! It all started…

I was told to go parkway so that I could hop on to the car later… So I went there and waited for like 45mins lah!!! But can’t blame anyone, it was the slow moving traffic at Eunos area. Then we dropped Xue Ying’s mum at Raffles City and we happily decided to zoom off to Holland Village… We went round and round Orchard then finally decided to move on to Holland Village… To be frank, we were kinda lost… Hahaz…

Then we were approaching the ERP machine, but we had no cash card!!! ARGH!!! So everyone in the car went into a frenzy mode in search of the SACRED cash card… Hahaz… Then no one have, hence Jonathan had to reach to his back pocket to dig his wallet out… By that time we were like 50metres away from the machine only… So I went into a second frenzy mode to find his SACRED cash card, but did not manage to find… Then there was this “BEEP” and we were like OH NO!!! Hahaz… Then we went into the third frenzy mode wondering how much we would be fined for crossing the ERP without putting in the SACRED cash card…. Some say 10plus, some say 30plus… Hence Mr Jonathan decided to get stressed up and it was quite funny… Hahaz… Friend, sorry that I did not manage to find your SACRED cash card on time… I promise that I will pay the split of the cost… Okie, then after many u turns we managed to reach the bike shop…

Bike shop not so happening, so not much… Then we left and decided to go to Funan the IT Mall to have dinner at Subway!!! Okie, after that we walked around and I saw that my laptop that I bought last week is $400 cheaper now… Like WTH…. Hahaz… Then we decided to go home after a while…

The journey home was happening… Because we had 6 people, we had to squeeze at the back… Then it was just after the NDP rehearsal thing, so there were A LOT of police and traffic police… As I was at a corner and rather small size, I had to hide constantly whenever we pass a policeman… Best part was that a traffic police was just beside the car only… Thankfully Evelyn and Xue Ying covered me up… Thanks friends.. And the guys, they were just laughing lah, especially WILSON!!! He was damn evil today, say I BIG, say put me in the boot, say I should be on the roof and all… Eh, I could be evil then make you take MRT know friend… But hot stuff forgiving, so its okie… Hahaz…I had to hide from the policeman from like Suntec there all the way to ECP… I was like cramping everywhere, but it was really really funny… Hahaz…. Then we send Evelyn home, Wilson to Kai Wen house and we happily went to see Wei Yang’s fat cat… So cute… Hahaz… After that we decided to find Annette and go back to Xue Ying’s house…

Hahaz.. Jonathan, you not bad know… Confident and steady even though we had godzillion frenzyness… Never band or what, small fine never mind lah ah…. Hahaz… Hahaz… Well, Xue Ying, your turn will come soon yeah and I am looking forward to it… Hahaz…

Okie, then went home with Jonathan and then there was an accident at my house the junction there… It was quite bad lah… the girls, got one crying in shock and another was unconscious with a man holding her in his arms…. Haiz… Sometimes things are just so unpredictable… Okie, I think I should end here le.. Today’s entry like very very long…

In summary, XUE YING, JONATHAN, EVELYN, WEI YANG, GRACE, WILSON AND THOMAS, thanks for the great day today… Xue Ying’s mum, thanks for lending the car to us… And Jonathan, thanks for being the driver…

I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS!!!

Reality check

Yesterday was doing project till i got quite stress, hence i decided to wurf the net and updat meself a little... Read something that i did not want to see, cause it reminds me of the past and it hits me real hard all the time...

It is like you never know who are the people who really enjoy your company and who are those that just try to entertain you... Come to think of it, i am not sure whether are those people still like that, or they really like me as a friend...

No matter how thick skin i am, i am still a girl and have feelings like tofu... I might seem real strong and boyish on the outside, but there are also times that i feel weak and girlish... Sounds weird... Hahaz... Like what my mum loves to say, i am a boy in a girl's body... Hahaz.. Thats quite saddening...

Back to the topic, thinking bout the incident that happened not really long ago, it made me ponder if whether do i make a difference? Maybe it was the timing that did not allow me to perform to my best, but maybe it is just me who is not up to the challenge... Was i the best candidate in mind? Or was it just a decision made to save time and get things done and over with... I never knew who was for and against me, but i guess after what i have done, even those for me will turn against me... Maybe not so bad that we become enemies, but al least learnt that i am not up to the challenge...

Okie, now for some happy stuff so i can stop speaking emo stuffs again cause it is never good... Hahaz... Just bought a new laptop, so YEAH!!!! Hahaz... A new Compaq laptop that costs $1899... My mum and i felt that it was quite a good buy so we bought it yesterday at Harvey Norman... But they cheated my mum into buying a 2nd year warranty at $189 when HP was selling the 2nd year warranty for just $99!!! Wha, then my mum got quite a bad feedback from my dad... Sorry mum... Thanks and i just love you both...

Then i went to meet LISA in the night for dinner and had some good stuff for dinner... Hahaz.. Cannot say... We chat and updated each other on what is happening... Thanks babe for taking the trouble to have dinner with me when you were at home... I am happy with such simple things that you are able to do... Well, i do not mind if we do not meet up, but i will be super glad if we do...

OH! Went for majong session on saturday night... Wha lau, i win quite a few times, but then win small... Xue Ying and Jonathan win only win so big, sucked all my chips away... So sad lah!!!! Still thought that we i woul not make any losses...

Okie, i got to go.. Lesson start le... Bye friends... Love you all, especially my Majong Kakis!!!

Terrible semester...

Have you ever encountered the times where you know that a project idea would not work but just decide to agree as you know that you will not be able to convince them that it will not work? It is so frustrating when this happens ad you know that you cant do anything but just sit back and wait for the results to give everyone a reality check...

And another one is that friends that just forgets your existence and only find you when they are in trouble or when they have no one else to talk to... I am guilty of this too when i was in relationships in the past... But have since woken up... I do not blame my friends for being like that, maybe i am just unhappy or jealous that now i do not get to spend more time with them...

This semester, much has happened and it has not made my life any easier... I really wanna sincerely thank my teammates for being there for me when i needed them... Especially the girls... I doubt i could survive in school if i did not have the chance to distress... Hahaz.. Not forgetting the guys like Wei Yang, Jonothan, Thomas, Rennie and so much more that cheer me up and do nonsense stuff when we are together... Really rock man... Triathlon batch of 2005 to 2007 rocks my world to the ultimate...

Candice, chaplin, swee kee and keng kee, thanks for just being there when i needed a person to talk to or just to find a makan buddy... Hahaz... My fake husband jaren too, thanks for putting up with my nonsense and giving me a ride when i need to... You all rock my friends!!!

I have given up much hope with my secondary school friends or even my poly mates as we all are busy with our own lives that we do not get to meet... Whatever would be my answer now cause i really do not care anymore.. If we meet, it is an incentive, if they are there for me, i am extra glad... If not, i will just live my life as it is and don't even bother... At least it makes my life much happier and not make me seem like a despo that i need them to be there always...

What is the point of being friends when they only find you when they are in trouble and goes to another when they are in joy? It is like you are there for them, but are they? I can definitely say that many of my friends are like that, but for my teammates, i feel happy and comfortable with them and i hope we can maintain it till we kinda get old and stuff... Hahaz... Thinking too far ah...

So i shall end here and get started with my projects... Love you all my friends, even though i might not be one to you... Smile!!

HOT STUFF GOING SHANGHAI IN 2 PLUS MONTHS TIME!!!

Malign!

There are many times that we get maligned for something we have not done due to various reasons. Because people are bias against you, people do not know what you are trying to say or people just don't bother to give you the respect that you deserve.

Many people come and go, and what I can't stand most is the damage that they cause in your life. It has happened to me on various occasions and the most hurting ones are when the people who malign you are either you best friends or family. Its like, why do that when you are family or friends to the victim. Then on the other hand, how do you define friends? Those who only find you when they are in trouble? Those who are only there when you are in trouble? Or those who have been with you regardless of whether anyone of you are in trouble or not, spending happy and sad moments together?

Everyone is so busy nowadays that it is so difficult to make a point to meet up. When people promise to keep in touch and all, it is just false talk most of the time. Like, we are all so busy with school life, new friends that we meet, work and all, till we forget the promises made and forget to spend time with your friends.

Many things has just happened recently and I don’t feel comfortable in blogging them out. Haiz, just can’t wait to go Shanghai and be gone for a while. Maybe my absence would make everyone’s life easier, better. Maybe its time for me to really really move on and stop hoping that things would be the same as secondary school days. The relationships that we have has really changed and shattered, and its time I just face the music rather than hide and pray for the better.

Hate it to be like that. It is so not me… But, sometimes the strongest person can be really vulnerable and all they need is just for family and friends to be around them to give them the joy in life.

Okie, got to go back to doing project work now... School is cool, but work is not!

Interesting day..

Yesterday was a rather happening day… Firstly is I had project, than the award ceremony, then went clubbing at St James Power Station… What an interesting day lah…

I was quite pissed with the award ceremony thing... All of our certificates has been printed wrongly except for Rennie’s one… Like what the hell lah, these names have been given so long before and this kind of stupid thing can happen… If it is only a few I can understand, but ALL?! Like hello, are you people doing your job well? Maybe our sport is just not well liked, but whatever…

Then we register so early, wait so long, go some useless rehearsal that in the end we did not rehearse just for that 10secs on that stage… Quite sad ah… Hahaz… Well, I guess that is life since we like are not the main characters… Hahaz…


I am so short!!!

Our guys look quite hot in their formal attire… Okie, maybe not hot, but look quite smart… I love Thomas’s teddy bear tie man, its darn cute people… Hahaz… We had quite a lot of fun taking loads and loads of almond longan jelly… It was good stuff man!!!



Then mad rush home to get prepared for clubbing… Was in a dilemma whether to wear dress or a new top that I bought… Hahaz… Finally came to a conclusion and wore the great new top that I have... I look like hot stuff man, actually I AM HOT STUFF!!! Hahaz… Then MISS TANG decided to pang sei all of us and not go… Like so damn sian when I received the news lah… Friend, please don’t do that again next time… My heart weak ah… Hahaz…

I pity Annette man… She came all the way down with us then her boyfriend was making a fuss so it kinda spoilt her mood… Her babe, thanks for making the effort down and I hope that you two are fine now… =)

So, it was left with coach, Xue Ying, Mei Zhi and me… So sad, but we had a lot a lot a lot of fun lah! We went from one club to another in St James Power Station and the songs were kinda boring after a while cause they like keep playing the same songs in different clubs… Like so sian lah.. I think they share the same ipod… Hahaz... Budget ah…. BUT!!! I MET A HOT HUNK THERE CAN!!! His name is Roy... Wha, he look like High School Musical the main character… But HOTTER! I am still mesmerized by him lah… Wha… Hid body and face, hot stuff man!!! LIKE ME!!! Hahaz… So thick skin…

After we left, we decided to go Coach’s house to have fun… Went there and we were watching Night at the Museum… Good movie man... Dum dum where is my gum gum… Very funny, but poor Xue Ying and Mei Zhi fell asleep so fast that they missed the show… Hahaz… I quite slow ah, the movie so long le then I watch… Yeah, after the movie I went to sleep an that is the end of the day…

I still can’t get over the hot stuff… Hahaz… HOT!!! Really really hot...

Weird day...

After 1 week, my big bruise is finally gone... Thanks to those who attempted to rub my bruise and those who cared for me... =) i am so loved.. hahahz...

Today had the Shanghai phone interview... I think i was the last to be called, so i was like damn anxious and nervous... It was quite enjoyable though.. Cant believe that i am saying this lah... The lady is really nice and i like her... Hahaz...

So after the interview i became a really good girl and ate with my parents then studied at home... Then i decided to meet lisa for supper and stay over at her place.. While i was walking to the MRT station, i saw this cat, it was crawling on its two front feet, dragging the lower body and vommiting blood out of its mouth... It was damn sad sight to see lah.. So the first thing i did was to call SPCA... But i guess that SPCA of Singapore is kinda loser... It has only ONE driver in duty and he was out at another emergency.... The poor cat died 15mins after i called SPCA... I waited for one BLOODY hour and still no sight, so i decided to leave the cat which was cold, dead and full of foam and blood on its mouth... I don't expect a rescue mission in 15 mins, but 45 mins the most? I mean, even if the cat had a chance to live, i think it would have been dead by the time the SPCA help came.. Its just ridiculous lah! What for donate money to this society when it is not even put to good use... Darn man...

I am so pissed lah... Thankfully i had another person with me... After chatting, i found out that he knows ASH!!! So we are like happily chatting for one hour... Then both of us decided to leave.. The world is so small... Hahaz...

I hope that the person who is responsible for the cat's death would be nabbed and punished... Evil i say, EVIL!!!

And i have to end with, i hate guys who hide things away from their girlfriends and vice versa... I mean, what is the point of being together when you are not truthful? Especially when you cheat on someone and expects forgiveness.. Just go eat shit and die... I mean, hello, it is your fault and you still think it is okie? What kind of attitude is that?!

Okie, got to sleep now.. Got to study for OB tomorrow... BYE!!!

A nuah day

I was totally a pig today at home as i was rotting my hours away the whole day and did not do and school work or project... Feeling really guilty but i was just too tired to do anything other than eat, sleep and watch television... Using my brother's laptop now, so fun!!! I am supposed to be asleep now but i just want to blog for fun... Try to use his computer for a while...

My bruise is getting darker and it is quite scary as you can see... Tomorrow got school but my brother does not have... For the first time i have to sleep earlier and wake up earlier than him... That is quite sad... Don't feel like going to school!!! Hahaz... But cannot, last year le, need to chiong!!! After year 2, i seem to have lost that swee kee spirit to go all out for everything... Maybe because many things has happened and i am not really used to it so yeah... really wana do well for this year so that i can get into a university!!!!

Okie, i need sleep now before i am late for lesson tomorrow... Got to wake up at like 8am and i got training tomorrow.. So bye my friends!! Love you all!!!

cycling!!!

this is my thigh, got 3 of this bruises.

Cycled a total mileage of like 65km today... My ass is on fire man and i am badly bruised(as you can see in the pic).... Stayed over at Xue Ying's place last night as we needed to wake up at 7am to cycle today... My first day riding a road bike and the experience was unique man...

Had to cycle to East Coast first and the ride there was okie.. Then we had to cycle coastal where i draft Xue Ying and it was shiok man! Then we had to do turning drills and i was like a dumb dumb, cycling into the grass instaed of the pathway... The 'best' is yet to come...

We had to cycle in one file and Mr Tan happily decided to sudden break which made me panic and sudden break and hit myself... I was in extreme pain for that moment lah... Then i decided to try to jam break as i misinteprated what coach said... So happily ask Wai Yang should i jam break and he said don't, but stupid me did not listen and happily jam break...

*Wha Lah* I skied and fell down quite badly before knocking into Wei Yang's bike... Eh bro, sorry if i gave you a shock... Wha, after the fall, i have like 3 big bruises and 2 cuts... Damn sad... Damn painful... Well, at least it was a lesson learnt the hard way... Was really happy when we went to have breakfast together... Food is my life...

Reality soon struck when i realised that we had to cycle home and my ass was already very bruised from the seat... The cycle back to Xue Ying's house was really painful and the sun was not helping at all... When we reached Xue Ying's house to pao shui, it was SHOIK to the ultimate man! Then we decided to suntan but fell asleep in the end and the weather was great as the wind was blowing cool air even though the sun was scorching hot... It was a great relaxing moment after today's training...

Though i am in total pain now, but i really feel good man... Feels good to do this man even though its torturous... Must do this more often... =) Xue Ying and Kai Wen, we must do this more often... The water soaking was good stuff man...

Went to see soccer match between MJ and RJ today... Both schools did really well! Even though MJ did not reign as champion, you guys still rock.. =) (so random)

Many things has happened recently... Was rather confuse and stressed on what to do, but just chat with Mark and Nigel Gor which really made me laughed and well, chill... Had fun talking to both hunks... So lo0o0o0oooo0o0ong never chat le... Really need to go and chill out together one day...

Everytime say this know, but in the end never plan then never happen.... Hahaz.. But keeping in touch is good enough for me... Makes me happy... Could clear my doubts thanks to gor.... Thanks!!! But there is a price to pay :

"for all charges for consultation please make payment to 'DR. nigel, specialise in love problems" total including new GST of 7% is 500bucks.. since you my mei i give you discount. %499.95..."
But cause i so cute, no need to pay... =)

Then i had another question, how to draw a line between help and nuisance? Professor Lim decided to give me the answer, and it is: Use Prof Lim ruler.... *a bish*

I am in the mood for any lame jokes now... So kinda feeling happy as i had a few laughs today...
Okie, i got to log off now... To all going through a hard time now, quoted from Professor Lim: there is never an end, its just a new beginning... So don't be glum yeah... Cheer up my friends... Love you all!!!

Emo day

Haiz... another bad day today... Yesterday was bad, today is bad and i believe tomorrow will be bad too... Need to just tolerate till monday, then maybe i will feel better after the presentation and test... I really do not know how to present so many thing about korea in 10mins without the expense of threatening my marks.. Madness... Was readin Nigel gor and Wendy jie's blogs just now... Too stressed, so needed some relief... OH! Andre, if you heppen to read my blog, just wanna say happy belated birthday... So sorry i not friend enough to remember your birthday... simple reminder, my birthday is on the 20th of september... Hahaz...

Suppose to go out this coming thursday but has been cancelled... Kinda sad cause i cant watch Pirates.... Hope we can go out soon my hot and popular darling lisa... Hahaz... Much things have been happening so far and has kinda affected me to a certain extent... My friends, families, school work, life and blah blah... Hmmm... All this has made me come to realise that life has 2 prominent types of people in various situations...

1) The person who gives and the person who receives
2) The person who loves and the person being loved
3) The person who misses and the person being missed

and i learnt a chinese phrase recently saying, those who are fated to survive will definitely survive, and those fated to die will never survive.

Sometimes, what you see on the outside is not how the person is on the inside... I feel that this statement is really true... A person who looks really confident on the outside might actually have alot of fears on the inside. I am just damn emo now and i do not know why... Darn, this is not good man..

Sometimes i wonder why my friends are luckier than i am without knowing it. Life is short and we have to appreciate whatever that comes into our lives before we lose them. It is a real good pointer to take note of...

Okie, just needed to write some stuffs to make me feel much better and to show that sheryl chau is still alive just that her blog takes godzillion years to be updated... Take care my friends...

ME!!!

OKIE!!! GOT BIG ANNOUNCEMENT!!! SHERYL IS THE CUTEST GIRL ON EARTH!!! Hahaz.. So thick skin... Watched le hana kimi, went on crazy mode and bought the VCD, OST and Fei Lun Hai quite outdated CD that was released like last year... Hahaz... Went to K Box today for the 1st!!! time in my life... so loser ah....

Sang lots of songs and found out that i was quite off tune... Hahaz... The key too low lah, cannot reach... Sang my lungs out with Kai Wen, Xue Ying, Mei Zhi and Ai Jia... Damn fun... Hope to go there again... But must earn money first!!!

I earn $60 spent $70.... Die, continue like that sue no money one... Think have to go back to oriental to work le... There the job more stable, at least i know when i need to work... Okie, i just blogged for the sake of blogging if not later people say i naver update which i really do not... Hahaz...

MISS ALL MY SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS!!!

YEAH! PROJECTS OVER!!!

YEAH!!! Finally after a long time i can watch TV in peace.... Stupid projects almost killed me and i survived! So happy.... But still have another 4 more to go... Well, at least now i have some time to relax and catch up with my darlings...

Talking about that... I am losing it and i don't know why.... It just came all of a sudden and i want it to go away... Its unfair and not logical for it to happen... Haiz... Affecting me but i think it would affect the other party more.... sian man... Still hoping that it would go away and things would be the same again....

Okie, cheer up sheryl.. Anyway just ran 21km last sunday and my toes are purple!!! ARGH!!! So scary... But wanna thank evelyn for running with me and pushing me on.... Literally could not walk on sunday and monday lah.... Okie, i shall go enjoy me free time le... heeeeez...

Bad Day

ARGH!!! WHY AM I IN SGC??? Haiz, had service lesson today, then knew where my deployment is... Fated... Okie, enough on that...

Was alone on the way home today... Sleepy, tired and just dead.... Found a seat in the MRT and was damn happy... Sat down and started to fall asleep... Then suddenly there was something nudging my knee... Got damn irritated then woke up, and saw this ah ma lah.... I was prepared to give up my seat for anyone who deserved it better than me, but today was different...

The ah ma started to nudge harder and i started to keep my legs more in to not be of any contact with her... But she moved nearer and nearer and kept nudging me! I was pissed, so i decided to NOT give the seat to her... Then she held the railing at the side and i was sitting at the end of the row or seats... Her finger started to irritate me by SCRATCHING MY FOREHEAD AND HAIR!!! Ultimate gross can! I was so eager to just whack that irritating hands of hers! Okie, then they got off at Tanah Merah, fine...

Went to the supermarket to find bacon bits... But NTUC dd not have hence i went Shop N Save... Met this family there... This stupid mother and father with 2 daughters...

I was at the lane looking for bacon bits, then she just reversed with her trolley of kids and bumped me with her BIG FAT ASS... She did not even say sorry or what but just gave the "get lost you low class life form" look... Fine, maybe it was an accident... Then i proceed down the lane to another shelf of sauces... That FAT MAMA just HAPILLY pushed her trolley and KNOCKED into my bag... And again she did not say sorry and just don't care about me!

Her kids were screaming like as if they were taking a decibel test, see who is the highest pitched fellow... Wha... Damn pissed.... This kinda people should just die... They should like get banged by trolleys till they are all bruised and wounded... Then let them rot and die!

Okie, i am so evil today cause i just had a bad day... That is life i guess... And it is only the 2nd week of school and i am already so worn out... Why? Hahaz... I don't even understand why...

Missing training really sucks cause its so boring... Like no extra fun factor though its like torture factor too... Hahaz... And i feel that i am missing out my old friends... I guess it's because i am not moving on when the whole world is... Okie, feel that i just have to accept that, cause its life... But i am really not moving on after secondary school, just don seem to be able to... It hurts to know that you will never be as close as you were before and that people would forget you over time...

Think about it, after splitting up in different schools and when you are the only one out, it is impossible to not be left out as all our lives are into the different route and you are the only one thats really 'detached'... Okie, sad stuffs set in again... Not good... SMILE SHERYL!

Okie, got to continuing doing my research le... To those taking their A and O levels, ALL THE BEST OKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY LISA, CHARITY , GERALDINE, SOOK FUN AND MAUREEN!!! JIA YOU!!!

(= Sheryl is totally not living in the right world... =)